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Can you start to feel it - the trouble and pressure from maintaining this relationship that you have, one that clearly isn't working out in the slightest. When all you want is to see him face to face, tell him the truth about the kind of person he is and love him despite all of his faults he can't conceal. Is it hard dealing with that rejection, knowing he's the perfect person for you, yet you're not the perfect person for him? And when you wonder how he feels, thinking all of this to be real, believing he has someone to care for unaware it's all entirely a lie that will never come undone, either he'll be left wondering what became of his lover or the dejection of reality, screwing him up all the more, knowing he can't deal with it -- you already saw a glimpse of that, and you wonder, just how screwed up would he actually be.