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[postitnotes]

I'm not quite sure why that bothers me so extensively, that he comes off as more upbeat and nicer among his friends, and I chose the cynical, egotistic route. I really need to put an end to this, and I can't keep going on, pretending things are alright. I think I royally screwed up - after all, I don't know him anymore, and despite my initial hesitations of watching Joe fall apart, it is all I can think about on a regular basis. I can't keep doing this, pretending there is nothing eating away at me so deeply.

Basically, I've presented a personally and a self that accurately represents who I am (I'd say approximately 90%) and if I give that off, it would seem rather suspicious.

I just want to go back in time.